i don't celebrate valentine but it's hard not to get into the mood because it's my cousin's birthday YO HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEST FRIEND SLASH SCREAM SCREAM PARTNER i'm sorry not sorry that i dragged you into krisho and also shinee because you got me into /this/ hell in the first place so it's basically karma but i love you and please keep being my late night screaming partner!! also i hope you will develop a better... sense for korean men since we often cry at your bias choices... and your bias list makes me very sad... LASTLY let's just pretend somewhere only we know never happened ok hugs u a lot. buys u a shitload of tissues. u need it.

/deep sigh/ it's just the second month out of twelve. too early to speculate things but i don't think this month has been good to me enough. i'm slowly losing my creativity and i still haven't worked on my portfolio and stuff and i'm running low on everything like literally everything and i'm slowly losing the will to get up and do things because i know i won't be into it and i'm gonna fail and i'm gonna make myself even more sadder ugh i could really use a break right now ;___;

but enough mellowing since i promised myself i won't be diagnosed with depression, ever. here ya go - this month's pick; songs that get me into the valentine mood!

symptoms shinee

these bad symptoms appeared after i met you,
i’m left alone on this black night
in my room that’s filled with thoughts of you

this is love super junior

the reason i like you?
well, to explain it,
our love is a happiness that is faster than andante

love, love, love exo

i can see the future
it can’t be if it’s not you
to you who made me reborn, incredible

hot times s.m. the ballad

i miss you even when you’re beside me
that my heart burns just at the thought of you
that I shed tears from the words “I love you”

Labels: music, sotm

nothing really interesting just me and my sleeping problems, really... i just installed a yellow lamp above my bed a few weeks ago, and i haven't turned on my room's lamp ever since. it makes me feel a whole lot better for some reason.

(also i lost my music sense i'm so sorry i'm trying so hard to cool down my kpop fever) but here are songs i put on replay most this month:

déjà-boo jonghyun ft. zion.t

i definitely saw you somewhere before
it doesn’t matter when i saw you
i can’t even remember where i saw you

mono-drama jonghyun

daydreaming about this by myself is okay
i know it's funny to compare myself,
even i think i'm pathetic

selene 6.23 shinee

so i called you with a fluttering heart
but there’s no answer –
i guess i can never reach you

let me know bangtan boys

it’s not that i still have feelings for you
i know we can’t work out
but why does it feel like i’m having indigestion?

i would like to thank not only God but also kim jonghyun for going solo and releasing base and consider yourselves lucky i didn't put all of the songs in here (probably next month... lmao) hopefully next month will feature happier/lighter songs since it's valentine month and even though i don't celebrate i like to get into the mood

— fun fact: jonghyun wrote three out of four songs listed above

Labels: music, sotm

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