drift away
mai
ok maybe this is a pointless rant but i want to type it out just because i need to get this out of my system before i officially start my exam cramming session

and i'm classifying this as a rant because i'm typing this out because this is my blog and my place to vent and i'm not (not-so-)subtly hinting at the people "mentioned" below to read this whole post okay it's my time to vent after so long and i'm not going to apologize for this

idk i'm not usually one to cry over sentimental friendship things because i guess i have grown less empathic from all of my previous weeny fights but sometimes it just hurt you how people are leaving you for others in a fking obvious way especially when you've known them for years sigh

mom told me love shuts everyone out and years of friendship gets forgotten in the face of love and that is a reality you must accept. i was prepared for that actually i wasn't prepared for the fact that this person casually remade her clique list and casually said sorry like nothing is happening

i might've been okay if not from the fact that she's saying it in a very fucking ignorant way as if we were heartless insects and she has the world in her hands

i hate swearing on ppl that they'd be miserable/etc so i just hope God hears my prayers and give her some sort of enlightenment or something because this kind of people needs to understand what they have done to other people

sighs being emotional is tiring how do people cope with feelings

 the only thing that matters

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mars
"uts"

expectation:



comeback subunit paling tenar dari sfc beranggotakan indira rizkia dan saffanah

reality:



terus.... gue mau pamer dikit yah

akhirnya

akhirnya!!!!!

I WAITED A F**KING MONTH FOR THIS

AKHIRNYA

SINGIN' HALLELUJAH YOU GOT ME SINGIN HALLELUJAH

alhamdulillah dapet versi yang diinginkan walaupun gue ga pesen secara spesifik ke mas2nya wkwk makasih ya mas you know me so well :D

mix: non title track nicest solos. 'nuff said.

juliette jonghyun (solo ver.)
when you look at me with those eyes
i want to hold you in my arms
but you're playing with my desperation
ace taemin
i’ll show you love, fights, sad goodbyes
will we have this typical cycle?
you don’t need to worry about that 
this ain't it taeyang
if we bump into each other, what would happen?
would i hide from you amongst the crowd
even if it’s only a waste of insignificant feelings.
i'd include something from base but let's save that for another time nah the original juliette sucks and jonghyun (and minho) wrote juliette so that song is technically theirs

gue nangis livestream tokyo dome ok don't judge me

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février
i don't celebrate valentine but it's hard not to get into the mood because it's my cousin's birthday YO HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEST FRIEND SLASH SCREAM SCREAM PARTNER i'm sorry not sorry that i dragged you into krisho and also shinee because you got me into /this/ hell in the first place so it's basically karma but i love you and please keep being my late night screaming partner!! also i hope you will develop a better... sense for korean men since we often cry at your bias choices... and your bias list makes me very sad... LASTLY let's just pretend somewhere only we know never happened ok hugs u a lot. buys u a shitload of tissues. u need it.

/deep sigh/ it's just the second month out of twelve. too early to speculate things but i don't think this month has been good to me enough. i'm slowly losing my creativity and i still haven't worked on my portfolio and stuff and i'm running low on everything like literally everything and i'm slowly losing the will to get up and do things because i know i won't be into it and i'm gonna fail and i'm gonna make myself even more sadder ugh i could really use a break right now ;___;

but enough mellowing since i promised myself i won't be diagnosed with depression, ever. here ya go - this month's pick; songs that get me into the valentine mood!

symptoms shinee
these bad symptoms appeared after i met you,
i’m left alone on this black night
in my room that’s filled with thoughts of you
this is love super junior
the reason i like you?
well, to explain it,
our love is a happiness that is faster than andante
love, love, love exo
i can see the future
it can’t be if it’s not you
to you who made me reborn, incredible
hot times s.m. the ballad
i miss you even when you’re beside me
that my heart burns just at the thought of you
that I shed tears from the words “I love you”
bonus track: beautiful tonight jonghyun
it’s another late night and i’m taking you home
the moon is big, it’s a full moon
if i let you go like this, i won’t be able to sleep for a while

i'm just horribly sm biased but what do i do when they have a+ songs and shinee

hopefully i'll have some surprises next week HEHEHEHE my mailbox is shaking from anticipation

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janvier

nothing really interesting just me and my sleeping problems, really... i just installed a yellow lamp above my bed a few weeks ago, and i haven't turned on my room's lamp ever since. it makes me feel a whole lot better for some reason.

(also i lost my music sense i'm so sorry i'm trying so hard to cool down my kpop fever) but here are songs i put on replay most this month:

déjà-boo jonghyun ft. zion.t
i definitely saw you somewhere before
it doesn’t matter when i saw you
i can’t even remember where i saw you
mono-drama jonghyun
daydreaming about this by myself is okay
i know it's funny to compare myself,
even i think i'm pathetic
selene 6.23 shinee
so i called you with a fluttering heart
but there’s no answer –
i guess i can never reach you
let me know bangtan boys
it’s not that i still have feelings for you
i know we can’t work out
but why does it feel like i’m having indigestion?

i would like to thank not only God but also kim jonghyun for going solo and releasing base and consider yourselves lucky i didn't put all of the songs in here (probably next month... lmao) hopefully next month will feature happier/lighter songs since it's valentine month and even though i don't celebrate i like to get into the mood

 — fun fact: jonghyun wrote three out of four songs listed above

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[29/05]
cause i've been trying way too long
to try and be the perfect song
when our hearts are heavy burdens
we shouldn't have to bear alone

so goodnight moon, and goodnight you,
when you're all that i think about.

—goodnight moon: go radio, 2011

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safe and sound - taylor swift ft. the civil wars


I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...



lagu ini soundtracknya the hunger games. au knp gue suka lagunya ahahaha mungkin grgr gue suka hunger games kali-__-
dan btw liriknya sweet banget:"

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like a knife.
I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life.

:""""

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favorite glee songs
selama liburan ini gue mengorbankan sekitar 70-75% koneksi internet buat download glee season 2 (season 1 udah selese). dan ini gue udah nyampe episode terakhir, jadi bisa dibilang gue udah denger hampir semua lagunya berhubung kalo gue gak suka lagunya biasanya gue skip eheh.
berikut favorit gue di bagian group (gak gue nomerin soalnya bingung yang mana yang harus nomer 1 hehehehe)

1x22 Bohemian Rhapsody (original: Queen)
salah satu favorit gue dari semua lagu group. yang nyanyi sih vocal adrenaline.


2x02 Toxic (original: Britney Spears)
Applause! Njir enak gila. Apalagi yang versi acapella nya. lead vocalnya brittany&mr.schue.

1x22 Don't Stop Believing (original: Journey)
kenapa gue ngasihnya di episode 22? soalnya gue lebih suka yang di episode ini daripada di episode 1.
Bisa dibilang paling sukses soalnya ini lagu glee yang paling banyak discrobble di last.fm. gue suka suara nya finn yang pas di episode 1, apalagi yang pas "just one more time"

2x08 Marry You (original: Bruno Mars)
dinyanyiin buat pembukaan nikahannya carole(ibunya finn)&burt(papanya kurt) oleh new directions~

2x14 Blame it on the Alcohol (original: Jamie Foxx ft. T-Pain)
gue bukan drunk cuman suka aja lagunya. kompak abis. mabok aja keren gitu gimana kalo nggak-.-new directions rock man

2x01 Empire State of Mind (original: Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys)
dinyanyiin di cafeteria buat nyari anggota baru buat glee club. keren gitu ada background voicenya

2x11 Bills, Bills, Bills (original: Destiny's Child)
acapella. iya emang gue suka acapella apalagi acapella gitar. warblerrrrr!

2x13 Somebody To Love (original: Justin Bieber)
ini keren parah. agak ngikut video aslinya cuman gue suka banget soalnya sam nya ganteng :3 dinyanyiin ama the justin bieber experience (sam, artie, puck, mike) dan puck pake wig omfg

1x03 Mercy (original: Duffy)
vocal adrenaline lagi. enak sih, kenyataan. hehehehehehe

sekarang bagian duet

2x18 I Feel Pretty/Unpretty (original:?)
quinn&rachel. ini juga enak, apalagi bagian quinnnya. dinyanyiin nya abis dokternya ngambil sampel idungnya quinn kan ya?

1x09 Defying Gravity (original: Wicked)
diva-off antara kurt&rachel buat lead vocal lagu ini. waktu nyampe di bagian tingginya sama kurt sengaja dipecahin soalnya dia gamau bapaknya nerima hinaan buat dia.

2x04 River Deep, Mountain High (original: Ike&Tina Turner)
do i love you? my oh my... sung by mercedes&santana buat competition duet new directions.

1x20 Poker Face (original: Lady Gaga)
mungkin ini paling favorit, haha. asli beda ama poker face yang dinyanyiin lady gaga. dibikin jadi ballad gitu, sung by rachel&shelby.

2x04 Lucky (original: Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat)
quinn&sam's. ini jauh lebih bagus drpd yang aslinya, gatau kenapa.

2x02 Me Against The Music (original: Britney Spears)
note:bukan karena videonya. gue emang suka lagunya sih, ama dancenya si brittany keren. santana nya agak ccd-,-


ohiya,
NOTE BUAT SESEORANG
baca line pertama nya ya. dan mulut itu buat ngomong, bukan buat ngatain.

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dream come true.
gue pernah bilang tentang band favorit gue gak ke lo pada?
oh iya deng pernah.
fyi, buat yang belom tau aja, namanya all time low. taun lalu mereka konser dan gue ganonton. sedih. miris.


semalem gue bete&memutuskan buka twitter. tiba tiba semalem om @AdrieSubono ngetweet kayak gini




pret. kebetulan nyokap pergi, jadi gue lari kebawah nelpon nyokap.
gue: MAMAAAAAAAA
mama: kenapa dek? (pake nada yang ngira kalo di rumah ada sesuatu)
gue: all time low konser di jakarta 6oktobeer!!
mama: tiketnya berapaan?
gue: paling 300-450an. ma plis boleh yayayaya aku tambahin pake duitku sendiri deh 250rb yayayayayayaya
mama: yaudah.
YES HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA









ohiya,

All Hail Jack Barakat
omfg cutest man alive
happy 23rd birthday ATL'S guitarist JACK BASSAM BARAKAT!! keep being my favourite guitarist, can't wait to see your concert:)

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New Project!
project aneh apa dir?
gue jelasin dulu. here we go

-sesi curhat-
gue lagi iseng mainin gitar pake kunci D dipetik petik dan akhirnya gue suka nadanya. gue coba pake bar 2 intro six feet under the stars. jadi awal mula intronya itu tapi mulai kedengeran aneh. cacat. jelek. ccd. ancur. apalaaah. gue pengen nunjukin tab nya cuman gue males nulisnya cuy. yang bener bener minat denger aja nanti gue email tabnya ya

udah pada ngerti belom maksud gue apaan

seratus buat yang jawab gue mau bikin lagu
lapan puluh buat yang bilang gue genjreng genjreng gajelas
NOL BUAT YANG BILANG GUE CACAT. wakakak canda^.^

side story wuhu

kenape lu dir? tumben pake side story-_-
saya bakat menjayus dan saya bangga #salah

jadi hari ini sodara gue lagi belajar dirumah gue kan. (note: yang gede gak bisa ngaji,ckck. yang kecil gabisa matematika) terus si gede ini dijelasin gak ngerti ngerti dan dia teriak teriak mulu padahal gue lagi nonton glee (gue lagi download glee season 1 ehe) dan lagunya enak. jadi itu pas dia bilang...

salsa : gak ngerti aaah *hopeless*
gue : *jbjbnihceritanya* makanya minum susu.. (kebetulan gue baru mau ngambil susu)
salsa : *ngakak*
gue : *turunkebawahambilsusu*

pas gue balik pun dia masih belom ngerti yang diajarin. gue tontonin aja... sebagai kakak sepupu yang jahat muahhahaha *evillaugh*

gue : sedih amat sih lu
salsa : *kacang*
gue : pagi hari kuminum susu... *nyanyi*
salsa : ini sore bek (bek=bebek)
gue : sore hari kuminum susu...
salsa : wk beeek bek
gue : sirik ya lumba lumba di laut mulu kaga bisa minum susu haha

berlanjut ampe gue ama dia nyanyi pagi hari kuminum susu ampe monyong wkwkwk

that's it:)

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Favorite lyrics!
"We can kick it here for hours and just mouth off about the world."
-Six Feet Under The Stars (All Time Low)

"I could really use a wish right now."
-Airplanes (B.o.B feat. Hayley)

"And I know, we'll stand together if the world falls down."
-This Girl (Laza Morgan)

"All i can say is i was enchanted to meet you."
-Enchanted (Taylor Swift)

"Damn right I'm qualified."
-Qualify (Keyshia)

"I know our love is new, I barely know ya."
-Dakota (A Rocket To The Moon)

"I'm beautiful in my way, 'cause God makes no mistakes."
-Born This Way (Lady Gaga)

"Feels like you're beatin', beatin' the drumbeats into my heart."
"You are a motion that makes me high, you are a dream that burns inside."
-Come Fly Away (Benny Benassi ft. Channing)

"I wanna feel weightless, and that would be enough."
-Weightless (All Time Low)

"You got me stuck by the way you glow."
-Rocketeer (Far East Movement ft. Ryan Tedder)

"You know I know how to make 'em stop and stare as I zone out."
-Club Can't Handle Me (Flo Rida ft. David Guetta)

"How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?"
"There are no hole in his shoes but a big hole in his world."
-The Man Who Can't Be Moved (The Script)

"She's out of control, so beautiful."
-Lost in Stereo (All Time Low)

"Can you take me back to the person I used to be?"
-Fear of Flying (A Rocket To The Moon)

"It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you."
-Can I Have This Dance (High School Musical)

"Lucky I'm in love with my best friend."
-Lucky (Jason Mraz)

"I got tired of waiting, wondering if you would ever coming around."
-Love Story (Taylor Swift)

"Forget about me, that's what I deserve."
-Jasey Rae (All Time Low)



udah dulu ya-_____-


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curhat dikit boleh lah ya
gue mulai menggila bareng mainan gue itu wakakak
mulai bisa belajar banyak sih cuman ya tau sendiri jari gue buntek ---> sedih

akhirnya impian gue buat mainin lagu favorit gue pun tercapai... *party*
tapi gue menghadapi suatu kendala.

tau chord Bm kan? (yang jadiin telunjuk neken satu baris fret nya
yang kayak gini nih



Berhubung jari gue buntek, gue jadi gak nyampe, dan kalopun gue paksa supaya nyampe, suaranya aneh.

jadi ketika gue liat ada yang berbunyi seperti ini







tuhan. gue berasa asma. nyeseknya bukan main.
padahal chord lainnya gampang.

flash news atl ngeluarin lagu baru dan lagunya enak lho ----promosi
judulnya i feel like dancin'. belom ada videonya tp cuman lirik doang, pajang ahh



dan gue mau sharing yaitu manusia dengan bakat ultra namanya sungha jung. gitarnya men fingerstyle dewa abis.



ASDFGHJKL GRENADEEEE

that's all for todaaay, see ya next time! :D

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